You asked me why we don’t keep in touch (well, “us” but for the purposes of this post, I’ll just speak for me). As if you have no worldly idea that we weren’t really all that cool during the time that we were in touch. In fact, more often than not, you went out of your way to act an ass, passive-aggresively insult me, and try to purposely push my buttons.
I don’t have to put up with isht like that. And so, I don’t.
Once time & space moved us on, I moved right the fugg on. Radio silence like a mofo. Why wouldn’t I? You think your attempts at bullying & belittling me would make me want to befriend you more? Really? #cmonson
Imagine my surprise when I get an email from you talmbout how you don’t know why we lost touch and you “miss me” this and “friendship” that and “lets reconnect” this.
Girl, bye. O_o
You must have a case of amnesia or something. You have to know you were completely ratchet to me.
Maybe you don’t know. So I responded to your email explaining to you exactly why I dropped off the face of your earth.
[As if you had no idea. O_O]
I put everything on the table as kindly as I knew how.
Thing is, I’ve been there. There was a girl I worked with before and I treated her like complete ISHT, and it didn’t even have anything to do with her as a person. It was just the scenario. I was jealous of her because she got a job that I felt I deserved and I was SUPER resentful about it at the time. She was definitely the bigger person. She killed my arse with kindness, even though I was an ice queen to her.
Over time, I realized I was acting a COMPLETE itch-bay and I took it upon myself to sincerely apologize to her for it and explain where I was coming from. I’m thankful that she was gracious enough to accept my apology and now, a good year or so later, we’re cool as a fan.
Imagine if I woulda stepped to her talmbout “I know we don’t work together no mo’, but I miss you. Why come you don’t ever call me?”
When you realize you’ve made a mistake… it may suck. You may realize you were a total and complete ass, as I did. You may want to hide that from the world, or even yourself. Because, let’s face it, nobody wants to be disliked. Nobody wants to own up to the fact that they may suck.
But once you’ve come to that realization, you have to own up to that isht. It’s the only way to get over it.
Don’t pass the buck. Don’t play the victim.
YOU effed up. So YOU apologize and make amends. Then everybody can move on.
When you try to deny & avoid & cry & get mad & point the finger, it only makes you look worse. And right now, homie? You are definitely denying & avoiding & crying & getting mad & pointing the finger & whining & leaving passive-aggresive facebook posts.
And what amazes me the MOST, is that it’s all seemed to fall on deaf ears. You’ve owned up to absolutely nothing in your part in this. You’ve apologized for nothing. You’ve tried to see my perspective on nothing.
After I DIRECTLY told you the deal. It went in one ear & out the other. Not even a genuine “my bad.”
What chu expect me to do with that, homie?
So, sorry. Won’t be no reconnecting over here. If you can’t take a look at yourself in this scenario, we can keep right on being estranged. To quote another person in the email thread, “I don’t fraternize with people who treat me poorly.”
Word is bond.